Deep First Sentence...

I am the most imperfect person that I know, but I am trying to become better. 

This post could go one of two very different directions. I could now expound on that sentence and make this a deep(3 ft.-ish) post, or I could just totally go off the reservation and tell you some crazy story. 

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Decisions, decisions, decisions.

That doesn't even look like a word now. 

HOkay. 

Let me start by saying I didn't make a New Years Resolution this year. 

I'm such a cad. 

I suppose I didn't because I had already fixed so much that I didn't really like about myself, and so I became temporarily complacent. 

How immature and lame of me. Seriously. 

After all this time I've spent not progressing I was really about to let myself be content with mediocrity?

Shame, Earl. Shame. 

Back to the first sentence: I am the most imperfect person that I know. 

In thinking about that statement, I think it's fair to say that to each individual they, themselves are the most flawed person that they know of. It reminds me of that cliche thing that goes something like: You can't compare your behind-the-scenes with someone else's highlight reel. 

I'm getting off-track. 

The purpose of this statement to me is that I spend more time and energy than I should judging others. Who am I to think that someone is ugly, stupid, pompous, ignorant, naive, etc., when I know how utterly damaged I am?

I like to think that I don't judge people too often, but it's definitely something I need to work on. 

Food for thought, I suppose. 

-Smooth change of subject-

Life is interesting, friends. 

I'm sure that within a seemingly-long-but-actually-short amount of time, that all of the events that have transpired recently in my life will all make sense. 

They don't always seem logical, but the only logic that I can truly trust in is what I feel to be right. 

Most of the things that I have done may not have made logical sense, but they felt right. 

The hardest part right now is trying to sort out all of my feelings, thoughts, and desires. I often fear that I may have acted rashly, emotionally, and without doing what actually felt right. 

It's an almost unbearably terrifying thought. I also believe that I've received two answers to two questions I've been praying about, and they're both comforting and deeply... Well, sad. 

But there's absolutely nothing I can do right now about it except for focus on my goal. 

Think things through, ladies and gentleman. But don't make the mistake of not listening to what feels right. I think that's the area that should be granted the most energy and true evaluation. 

Life is good. Hard, but good. I'm always here for any of my friends who may need me. 

For whoever still reads this, you're great. Here comes some odd-Internet PDA. 

I love you. (No homo)(that "no homo" didn't apply if you're a woman)

:)

Earl/CJ out

Today Feels Different

So, not entirely sure why, but today feels so different. I went to bed last night at a decent hour, and I'm now awake, and functioning at 7:00 AM. 

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I know, right?

And I feel so calm. 

And I have a giant canker sore. 

But I'm so calm about it. There's sooooo much going on nowadays, especially these next couple weeks. Life is going to get crazy. 

Yet, here I am: sittin' in my apartment at what was once an ungodly hour, and I feel so flippin' peaceful! 

Total zen, baby. Oh, yeah. 

So I'm getting that nose surgery that we talked about last time! I'm actually super excited about it. The doctor was telling me all these things that would change about my daily life, for the better, and I was just kind of floored. All these issues he was bringing up I thought were just part of life; I'd never known differently. But nope, I broke my nose when I was super young  (apparently), and now I get to have all of it fixed :). 

And the grand prize: I get to FINALLY turn in my mission papers :). As stated before, I've been done with my side of the papers for almost a month now, and I've been waiting on all of this medical stuff so I can't even tell you how anxiously excited I am for this :). 

It's been a long time coming. 

I just want to thank everyone who's always believed in me, even when I had given up on myself. You know who you are. 

Earl out

Work parking lot

I felt the urge to post something for some reason. Haha I have no clue why, I'm just sittin in my work parking lot before my shift and I got the feeling that I should say something on this dealio. 

So... Hi :D! 

Life is great y'all. There have been some bumps recently but I know that all of this is happening for a higher purpose and by a higher design than I am able to fully understand at this time. 

I might be getting surgery....! Haha on my nose of all things. That's such a wimpy soundin surgery. More manly, though, I think, than like... Toe surgery or something. Cuticle surgery. 

Feel free to comment below with other wimpy surgeries! I'll keep you all who check back here posted more often as I get closer to my goal :). 

Have a great week, everyone :)!

Earl out. 

WTFIL?

What the flip is Lemongrab??? Hahaha google search, "adventures of earl"...

Timing = Important

I've always heard people talk about how they have terrible timing, but I don't think I had ever really experienced it for myself until very recently. I don't think you have a very good sense/care-for timing when you're younger because the schedule you follow is largely dictated by your parents, and as far as timing in other aspects, there aren't really many opportunities growing up for children/teens to be irresponsible with timing. 

Timing isn't everything, but man, it sure is important. 

The cliche that comes to mind is, "There is a time and a season for all things.."

(Is that a cliche or a scripture...? Ah, well.)

That scriché is totally correct.
Patience, Earl.
Patience.

Earl out

Time to Expound

So there I was, in a rut. It sucked. 

That was a poem I just wrote for all (2?) of you.

I'm really only blogging right now because I'm at my parents house with a few minutes to spare and I only really do this whole thing when I have access to an actual computer. So... yeah.

Well, I guess I'll tell you about life in recent times!
I think I'll start this story at the end, and then go to the beginning, periodically returning to the end, perhaps with other character's perspectives throughout. Otherwise it's just sort of a linear--

"JUST TELL US WHAT HAPPENED!"

Okay, okay.

So there I was, for months I had been in a rut that was quite similar to the first twenty-four months of post-graduation life. My life was stagnant(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2y8Sx4B2Sk). I wasn't going anywhere. And then I moved, and things changed. If you wanna know more about that time, then go back a few posts.

And then once again... Stagnancy. I don't think that's a word, but I don't mind it too much. For months, it was just the same old thing everyday, and I wasn't really happy. There were great things that happened in those months, don't get me wrong, it's not like I was in the gall of misery or anything, but the overall theme was that I wasn't where I wanted to be. I wasn't who I wanted to be.

So after a lot of personal reflection, some personal experiences, and a kick-in-the-pants by my best friend, I decided enough was enough. It's never easy to give up things that are comfortable to you, things that you might feel like you need. It is worth it though to take stock of all the things in your life, and really dwell on what makes you happy and what doesn't. That way, you can repurpose yourself: your energies, your emotions, all'a that onto the things that give you peace.

So that's what I did. And it was easier than I thought it would be. Staying focused and putting forth the energy necessary to keep myself where I need to be, and doing what I need to be doing, I've changed a lot of things about my life that I didn't like, and ya know what? I've never been happier :).

I started my mission papers... :D and I'm all set to be ordained an Elder in my church tomorrow. My attitude towards most everything in my life has been altered. Many of my opinions have changed, and I've grown to love and appreciate my friends and family infinitely more- or at least it feels that way. I hope I externalize that enough and make those whom I care about feel thus. (Biblical on yo' vocabulary! Word!)

I wanted to have my papers done by now, but I've been at work everyday during the hours when I need to get my dental and physical examinations done :(. But such is life, things don't work out the way you plan them to sometimes. I will have them done by the end of this next week, though. I hope to be serving the Lord full-time very soon.

Yes, ladies and gentleman, it's actual-really-truly happening :).

Maybe I'll write more in the coming weeks, but maybe I won't :P.

Hope all of you are doing well :) Have a great 2013!!!

Earl out

Ladies and gentleman, it is going to be a great year :). The best I've ever had, I'm sure. I couldn't be more excited/anxious for what's to come and I thank everyone who's had a part in it :). Also, holy-freaking fantastic New Years Eve night :D.
2013, let's do this.
Many, many good things happening.. :)
Earl out